Some Of My Biggest Regrets

Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone does SOMETHING that they wish they could take back, not say, and/or erase from their lives. Unfortunately, I’ve done so many things that I regret. This might be the longest post in the world if I talked about every single thing I’ve messed up. So here’s just the tip of the iceberg.

  1. I wish I could take back every argument and mean thing I’ve ever said to my parents and sister. Family is everything and it’s easy to butt heads when you’re constantly around each other, even work. We really don’t get a break from each other. Plus we have such big personalities and such differing opinions. To me, family is everything. When everyone else jumps ship, they’re always still standing there supporting, loving, and not judging. So when we fight and argue, it tears me apart. It makes me feel so bad, so lonely, and upset. I take responsibility for a lot of the arguments that occur. My word vomit is crazy and I will pop off at the mouth in a heartbeat. I would like to say that I am not a confrontational person…. but that would be a lie. I’ll either tell you what I think or kill you with silence. It’s definitely something I’ve been working on. I just need to be more mindful.
  2. I wish I had finished college. Let me rephrase that. I wish I would have waited until I knew what I really wanted to go to college for before I rushed into it and wasted my time on half a degree that I wasn’t ready to focus on. I was too caught up in the wrong things with the wrong people. I just wanted to have fun. Hell, I had just graduated high school and I was just ready to have a good time. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. I just think that I wasn’t mature enough to focus on anything. Especially college. Now I think about going back to school everyday and how I wish I wouldn’t have to take out a loan to do that since my financial aid from the state is used up. I wish I could have experienced meeting new friends and going to football games. Instead, I was more excited for $1 drink nights at Carlos and Charlies. What an idiot I was.
  3. I wish I would have been more responsible with my money. Let’s just say if there ever was a time when I had to decide between expensive new shoes or eating for the rest of the week, I would get every color that shoe it came in. I felt like fashion fed my hunger more. I’m sure by now I would have a down payment for a house or be able to actually go on a vacation for the first time in five years. But now I’m starting from scratch.
  4. 99% of the relationships I’ve ever been in. I’ve always had garbage taste in men. There. I said it. My low self esteem has always made me settle for less than what I truly deserve. I don’t know if it’s because I was just lonely and wanted SOMEONE. I’ve definitely learned from those mistakes and cut ties with toxic people and toxic relationships that held me back.

I wanted to share this with people because I think it’s important to identify what your weaknesses are but not get too caught up in them because everyone has their strengths that come along with those weaknesses and mistakes. We all have something wonderful about ourselves and we can’t beat ourselves up over mistakes. We can’t keep punishing ourselves forever. We can only move forward and try and fix what we did and learn from our mistakes.

What are some of your regrets?

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One Comment Add yours

  1. Kristina G says:

    The last time my dad and I spoke, was an argument. He’s dead now, and I can’t take back my last words to him.

    Needless to say, this blog hit home with me.

    Like

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