I’ve never been a small girl. I’m 5’9” and full of curves. I’ve always been told that I have a “beautiful face” and although that’s super sweet, that really upsets me because… what about the rest of me?
I’ve tried diets that don’t last because I would get so frustrated so easily. I would be out at dinner with friends or my family and I would have a treat yo self moment that never ended. My motivation would always start out super strong and then I would run out of fuel.
I’m definitely not the heaviest I’ve ever been, but I’m still super upset with how I look. I always avoid photos with family and friends. Especially in a bathing suit. I sometimes take a shower with every intention to get ready and meet some friends out, and decide to stay in due to not feeling comfortable in anything I put on.
I just can’t live my life like this anymore. So today, June 25th, I will take care of my body and learn to love myself. I think I would be happy after losing 50-60 lbs. I think I’m going to either make update posts about this every Wednesday but I’ll write them or do vlog the Monday before. I also am going to try to stop smoking. 😭
I’ve never wanted anything so badly but I really need to take care of myself so I can live longer and have more dogs. Duh.
Wish me the best of luck and check out my progress next Wednesday! God give me strength to lose this weight and putting down the cigarettes for good this time!
(Just downloaded this app to keep track of my nonsmoking progress and thinking about downloading the Sweat BBG by Kayla Itsines app again and TRYING for the final time.)