I hate change. I really do.
I am a creature of habit. I like routines and I don’t like switching it up.
The move to Charlotte has made me really put a lot of things that are important to me in the backseat such as mental and physical health. I’ll be the first to say that I’m really bad at commitment though. So change is hard for me to make anyways. I am so tired of it though. Breaking promises to myself is so upsetting. It’s a vicious cycle of breaking a promise I’ve made to myself and beating myself up about it and continuing in a downward spiral of depression until I forget about it because that’s just what is easiest for me than to move forward and finish what I started.
I’ve written so many goals posts. So many weight loss posts. So many dreams of being comfortable in my skin. I look in the mirror and hate what I see sometimes. I know that’s almost the norm for most women though. WHY? If we don’t like something why don’t when change it?
I said in my last post about becoming vegan, “if not now, then when?” When will I lose weight? When will I stop smoking? When will I go to the gym? When will I make my physical health a priority because it’s affecting my mental health?!
No more broken promises. I have come so far to fail and not be the absolute BEST I can be. My parents raised me better.
As of Monday, April 22nd, 2019. I will start my vegan journey as well as my Arbonne 30 Days to Healthy Guide. I know it will take longer than 30 days to become the best physical version of me, but I know that this is the starting point.
I’m just alone so much now that I’ve moved here and I feel like this is the best time to embrace this moment. All the time I have can be filled with self improvement. I have no more excuses.
What is something you procrastinate with? What’s your biggest fear about failure?
I will update my blog every Monday as my Motivational Monday post about my journey. Maybe before and after photos eventually? I hope it’s something you like! Maybe even do video updates! I expect everyone who reads this to hold me to it. Please comment with the most positive uplifting words of encouragement, because I know this won’t be an easy journey.